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Monday, October 03, 2005
i had a weird dream last night."" - posted by michy at 9:02 PM i think it would be stuck in my mind for a long time. i dreamt i was in this shop house like building i was walking down a flight of stairs then i saw him. i was quite stupid in the dream. i was thinking to myself ' its ok. i cut my fringe already so he wont recognise me' then i looked down and walked right pass him. then he tapped me on my shoulder from the back. and said " wanna go toilet?" (in other words its ' you wanna talk privately?') then i thought ' oh he finally wants to talk' and i said ok without looking at him. then when i went to the toilet, i realised the guy wasnt him. it became my church fren. i guess this dream means that ive been let down too many times by him. or maybe i expected too much. that now.. i dont know if i should keep trying. everyone ard me is telling me to let it go. but you see.. this is a classic example that certain things are easier said than done. i saw a super bright star last night. it was SO SO SO bright. it reminded me of M.E. kinda made me happy and also sad. oh well.. every morning when i see the moon, i think of M.E. too. *sigh* i cut my fringe on saturday. i look stupid now when i tie my hair up to sch well not exactly stupid. i just look like a china girl. oh well, hair will grow just like feelings do change. i managed to do my chem 10yr series, bio 10yr series, math 10 yr series and add math 10 yr series. i feel so accomplished As I sit here and stare. I remember the past and of better times that seem to be just a dream. I see you there and wonder what went wrong. Why did our love have to end? And why if we did then couldn’t we always be friends? I see you now but not as a dream. You walk up to me and just state. I look at you and wonder what’s on your mind to come back at such a bad time. I was learning to move on. Got you out of my mind. The wounds you left have now just begun to heal Now you’re back in my life. You want what you gave up. You want something more. I don’t know if I trust the words that you say. I’ve heard all those lines so many times before. But in my heart I love you still and it breaks it to just walk away. But it’s what I have to do for myself. So as I turn around to go I feel the tears. The tears are back. But this time I know I did the right thing to let you go |
