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Thursday, March 16, 2006
i was flipping through my diary last night. i havent been updating it for a while. well, i think my not-so-screwed-up year in secondary school was when i was in sec 1 and 4. or maybe its just sec4 because i think sec1 was pretty bad too. well i rmb spending half of my sec4 year getting over a lost.... it is a miracle that i managed to get up again."" - posted by michy at 4:22 PM " truth is never should have let you go truth is when its all said and done.... guess im still in love with you" i have no idea where i got this thing from. i just found it written in my diary. im guessing it could be another one of my emo songs. i guess this post is going to be very random because i dont feel very organised today. i think i like living in self denial. its like, when i know something has happened(when i DO NOT want it to), i will not say it out or even write it out. because by doing so, it just makes everything seem so final... like permanent. maybe i just wanna escape from it. i dont know. i guess thats just how i cope. i think im beginning to miss my secondary school days. when everything was much simpler(academics, life... blah blah). i miss the feeling of walking into school and feeling.... i cant find the word to describe the feeling. its just different from being in JC. its like when i walk into PL i feel invisible... well not that i feel as though i have many pairs of eyes staring at me. i just dont feel so self-concious. ah! i dont know what im talking about. i just cant seem to find the right words. told you im not feeling very right today... or rather ORGANISED. well i painted my nails today. guess how many nails i painted? people who know me should know the answer... 15 NAILS! you know why? hahaha! cause i cant use my left hand to paint my right fingers. im still practising..:) hah! so now my toes and my left hand fingers are painted.. i had salad and bread for lunch and tonight I, MICHELLE, will be preparing dinner with my freshly "manicured" hand(notice its singular). hahah! i wanted to hang with my friends today but... urgh! couldnt go.. i just realised i watched the OC season from episode 20onwards before. so i shouldnt have taken those DVDS. i was watching it till about 1.15am ytd but i didnt sleep till about 2am and i got up at 10am. when i got up this morning, i thought it was still 7am. oh well... ok so now abit abt the oc. i like watching seth and summer hang out together. they are so CUTE and FUNNY! but when it comes to marrisa and ryan, it gets boring cause they are always just quarreling or making out or up. but then again, they are all very nice to look at cause they are good looking. seth is cute, ryan is boyish, summer is sweet and marrisa is pretty. put them together and you get a very popular nice teen drama series. :)! OH! and i just realise ytd that they are showing one tree hill season2 at 3am everyday!!! 3 am! LIKE WHO IS STILL AWAKE AT THAT TIME?! i wanna watch..... this is frustrating.. i just found one difference btw PL ppl and CJ ppl. at PL when i say i wanna watch nanny mcphee, the all go " YEAH! ME TOO! LETS GO TOGETHER!!" but at CJ, they are like ".............(silence)" they ignore me! they stare at me as if i just came out from a cave after 15 yrs!ppl at CJ like to watch...i not stupid2, jap anime, and that recent stupid jim carrey show. well i wouldnt say they liked that movie but... they actually went to watch it thinking it would be funny. oh well! i won the bet.. it wasnt. i miss watching chick flicks by hilary duff with michelle and hil and hejing and weiling.. i miss going to the movies to watch chick flicks with mich and hilary after sch at bishan. i rmb there was once i went ti catch a movie with them at bishan after sch. i cant rmb what show it was. they came home with me so that i could change cause i was going out ltr after tt. then we actually bought popcorns and had our drinks in our hands. but the popcorns turned all soggy and sticky by the time they got to my home. we wanted to keep it for the show but the popcorns looked so gross. they were all clumped together that if you were to overturn the box, the whole lump would fall out. but! me, being the no-wasting-of-food person, went to finish the whole box during the movies. hahaha! the movie was that good! havent heard from doug for the whole hols! wonder what he's been up to. lazy bum didnt even update his blog. i wonder hows kenneth, kerryn, perm hair and shi yi doing in their new sch. oh well. life goes on. i want my old one back. Ran into an old friend yesterday Caught me by surprise when he called my name He was a familiar face, from a chapter in my past Talked for a while, asked him how it's been Said that he was seeing somebody and Told me this was gonna last Showing me her photograph And all the feelings that I thought were gone Came rushing back to me at once Tried to smile and hide the way I felt But I was thinking to myself (Truth is) I never got over you (Truth is) Wish I was standing in her shoes (Truth is) And when it's all said and done Guess I’m still in love with you (Truth is) I never should have let you go (Truth is) And it's killing me cuz now I know (Truth is) And when it's all said and done Guess I’m still in love with you We reminisce on the way things used to be Shared a couple laughs, shared some memories Talked about the things that changed Some for good and some for bad Then he said good-bye and he paid for lunch Promised that we'd always keep in touch Now the truth is it hurts but I know that the fault is mine ‘Cuz I let him go Tried to get over it but it's messin' with my mind (Because I know) |
