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Thursday, March 23, 2006
school is getting so emotionally draining for me. its robbing me of my joy, my laughter, my happiness... blah blah blah!"" - posted by michy at 9:52 PM im really feeling so tired of having to go to school, sit in that bloody seat of mine and having to force out a laughter or a smile. my heart feels heavy and im unhappy. but i guess i just need some time to get used to this feeling. everyone from 1T01 last time has moved on. i guess i should too. there was a conflict in class this morning. someone must have went to say something to miss foo(home tutor) which made her bring up the problem the class is facing. this is what i think the problem is: the class is made up of T16 and T7. T16 people form their own class clique and T7 formed theirs too. someone told me that there was "fight" over who should dominate the class. T16 wants to dominate but T7 also kinda wants to. so we attempted to help the class to bond by having seating arrangements. but that obviously didnt work because some people just didnt like their partner.. well maybe actually just this girl. so today, the HTC came up and asked everyone if they wanted to change seats. T7 people were all alright except the T16 people. so yes.... in the end some of them changed their seats. there was one point when the atmosphere got so tense.. nat and liangjie kinda raised their voices at each other for a short while. the atmosphere was SO tense. im just so tired of school now. everyday, i have to face those people and look as if i am happy and be neutral abt everything. but how can i be when i am in such an environment. i choose not to say anything doesnt mean i am oblivious abt whats gg on. im just so tired. i dont even enjoy myself during breaks. i found myself wondering what to do during my break. i usually just sit at the canteen and laugh the time away. i guess nat and i cant really click. i miss my To1 friends but i guess i just have to get over it and move on. i need to grow up. i need friends. i need true, genuine friends. im so tired of saying how much i miss T01 people... im so tired of everything. this is another one of my boring and full of complains post. i need an output and currently, the only one i have is my blog cause my friends are busy. so yeah... im sorry i have to put you through this. |
