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Tuesday, April 04, 2006
im feeling stressed after listening to bro paul's talk."" - posted by michy at 9:30 PM i feel as if i cant cope. im having an econs test tmr on dd and ss and price det. god help me! got to do my chem tutorials which are due on thurs. i hate chem lessons. i feel very tensed during chem. im just so afraid of the teacher. so afraid to give wrong answers to her. celebrated steff's birthday today. had pe today. wasnt that tough. ran 2.4km and tried long jump. cldnt really jump in sch. i guess its cause i just ran so my legs were tired. i cld jump better at home. during PE, my classmate said she cldnt jump well then when she went on the mat, she did a 200cm jump. IRRITATING PEOPLE! came home and took a nap. i feel so much better now. havent been feeling very happy these days. im still missing my sister. she misses my nonsense. i just miss her company. im feeling stressed. have some problems at school too. sometimes i think death is a form of release. a release from all the emotional turmoil that one has to go through in life a release from the stressful lifestyle a release from this place called earth aka living hell. BUT! its a sin to commit suicide. so i shall just wait for my timing. wait for God's calling. i need a purpose in life. im waiting for God to reveal my purpose in life. i'd give up my studies to live my life with a purpose. right now, i dont have one. i dont even know why i am studying so hard. for myself? i dont really need those certs. for my parents? they love me the way i am. for God? who knows.. he might have another plan. i dont know. im babbling. how random. i want my sister back!!!!! just 12 more days! 12 more! 12 more! i think i kinda like attention. guess thats why i think my birthday is the most imp date in the calendar. every yr, the only thing i look forward to is MY birthday. i get all excited abt it.:) burnt my arm while ironing on sunday now i have a ugly scar on my right arm cant wait for it to heal. BUT! i think it looks rather cool. gives me something to talk abt too! miss ang( nexus teacher in charge)just handed me a project to do. i feel even more stressed. its a big project that i dont think i can manage. i still have to cope with sch work and my gu zheng. gu zheng will be having a performance in May i think. im stressed. who said nexus was easy?who said nexus does nothing? YOUR HEAD! Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way You Love Me All The Time Maybe I'm Afraid Of The Way I Love You Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way You Pulled Me Out Of Time And Hung Me On A Line Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way I Really Need You Maybe I'm A Girl And Maybe I'm A Lonely Girl Who's In The Middle Of Something That She Doesn't Really Understand Maybe I'm A Girl And Maybe You're The Only Man Who Could Ever Help Me Baby Won't You Help Me Understand Maybe I'm A Girl And Maybe I'm A Lonely Girl Who's In The Middle Of Something That She Doesn't Really Understand Maybe I'm A Girl And Maybe You're The Only Man Who Could Ever Have Me Baby Won't You Help Me Understand Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way You're With Me All The Time Maybe I'm Afraid Of The Way I lead You Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way You Help Me Sing My Song Right Me When I'm Wrong Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way I Really Need You |
